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To Die From Love
02:55
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There it hits – this smashing cold
I hear the ground creak from her steps
My eyes fixed onto this saving door
- I lower my eyelids
It’s all freefall from here
Deadweight speeds me towards healing
Waiting to burst on the very bottom
Waiting for a feeling
Caught in a cycle
The devil sleeps right next to me
Still waiting for my blood to fill my coughs
I’ll never find more love
I’ll just wait till it ends
I’ll get what I deserve
And if this is how it ends today
At least I died through love
Let me die by love
Die from love
I’ll never find more love
I deserve no love
I feel like being locked in
Like I was caught in amber
You are dancing to our deathtune
- darkest sun shines late December
Sweet innocence
This sinking feeling
This isn’t love – I’m being owned
(but) I’m rather this than being alone
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I’m done with expectations
They don’t get me anywhere
I’ve seen too many of you
Change behind familiar faces
This life where being low
is the new high
And every high
means a new low
When keeping up with representation
Changed every bit of you
In love with misery
(and) always aware of that
If you call this a living
I’d rather be dead
Don’t tell me
I’m the soulmate you were seeking
Sometimes I hate to share the air
we are breathing
Summertime sadness and you’re ten miles high
Winters’ cold and you’re waving life goodbye
winter’s cold – you die.
still swallowing these pills
down they go with a glass of brown
(your) eyes look terrible
sinking like a stone
sinking like a stone
Your words cut like razors
(They) cut their way inside my head
Try to reconsider all of this
In the face of death.
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It Can Not All Be Roses
04:48
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Beneath this descent
I’ve built up on my demise
I could have tried and killed
All that was strangling me with such a permanence
I was given the mindset of headaches
The beauty of let-downs
All your words of profoundness will fade
Trust this: ‚No human being is just itself alone’
So sick of searching for peace
I’ve had it seized too many times
See with all my dreams of dying
I killed the chance of rest in life
(as I) contemplated what I was worth
I’d always answer for myself
Living in a mirrored state of time
I’m wishing myself away
I kept a silent smile
Knowing nothing turns back time
Revision is heroin to bliss
Only the worst would do just fine
And from the bottom of it all
I would just stare and watch me fall
A spit-sealed mouth and there just goes his:
„It can not all be roses“
This world keeps moving I swear
And life hits harder the more you prepare
All imperfections in completion
Stuck in the silence of my reflexions
To kill the chance of rest in life
Wishing myself to a grave
I'll find relief when it closes
„It can not all be roses“
Please know I never tried
I felt comfortable within the barriers of my mind
Every word of your advise
Just fed the silence growing from inside
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Resilience
03:15
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A dying seizure in your eyes
Hollow stares that reflect mine
Your shaking body pale and lost
This crumbling wall was built by time
You would not in a thousand lives
Live up to what you’re told was right
I missed out on my part in this mess
Resilience as a state of mind.
If the reason for our existence
Was to question the non-existent
Why should we even try
A glass-shaped laugh at the value of a life
The inherent fear of a big dream
Can’t be swallowed down a throat
I still hear ice-cold metal
From the inside of your coat
And you wave goodbye
Man, you’re waving life goodbye
As if time would heal all wounds
And (as if) contributing pays off
I’ve seen her desperate eyes
- uncounted tears of loss.
And I swear there comes a day
When they ask you and you say:
I did as I was told
(Now I’m) desperate, fucked and old.
All the tragedies untold
I fear it hits you when you’re old
When your deathbed sheets unfold
And nothing turned to gold.
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And I – I’m tired of the sadness inside
Let me love for a night
I’ve been screaming these old songs
I’ve been chased away from life
And I’m getting it back
In the word of love
Life’s becoming awkward
My dreams are of warmth and comfort
understanding struggles
Which have thrown me into the sunsets
I don’t scream with hate
It’s been carved in my face
It’s the coming of age
I’ve been carried away
And now I am sacred to hold
To be taking control
Love dies when it loves alone
I don’t feel
The way my heart once felt inside
You’ve been getting this all wrong
(Well) Don’t believe me
when I told you I don’t see what life has taught you
I sank in loathing – into the morning after
Please don’t try and teach me anything
I’ve been burying myself deep inside my head
In my dreams I'll (still) end up dead
I sing this song
To make myself aware
of what’s to follow
Humble steps into an agony
Don’t blame me when I fail
I owe this to myself
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I feel like I have lost an old peace
one I found in my own sadness
What I mean is: There’s no fear
Once you’ve ended to be restless
I think I’ve lost my old ways
The ones that built a capacity of bleakness
What I mean is: There are no tears
Once you fall in love with weakness
Love fought all my battles for me
The ones that I got beaten in shaped armour for a new one
In my dreams I have died
I died without a chance to say goodbye
I died a million deaths at night
To stay alive during the day
Every morning after a lot of feeling hit a lot of concrete
I always thought I do not deserve the ground that is underneath my feet
To the bleakness of all my masters of that war
I can’t compel the dark side of my spirit
Cold hearts killing without a thought on time
I can’t say that I was never in it.
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Eyes can not see the meaning of me
The brighter the light,
the darker I seem
I’m stuck to your feet
They depict us
from every side
never alone
nothing you can learn
we sleep and we rise
we turn when you turn
Carry me away
(I’m) caught in a slipstream
Consuming cold
be with me
You nourished your fears
I darkened your way
You wandered in hate
To see if I stayed
We literally are the sickness of this world
That has lost its sense for love in a million turns
We all are having these demons beg for sin
We are this planets’ Hell Within
No we can’t be lost
We are always by your side
They are a part of us
Shadows oh so vile
Shadows don’t die
They grow by time
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Funeral Moon
03:42
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You enter the realm
of spiritual guidance
(you) float like colours on stained glass
A prism of your best and your worst – completion
pinned to earthly pleasures
by deadweight alone
in the coldest of your days
you stare at a dying sun
as our spirit is transcending
to a funeral moon
merely I believe in what I feel
this righteous part of nothing
that has brought me to my knees
and it’s to find myself down there
(that) I got to know which way was up
And to be part of so much hate
Taught me how to love
Merely I believe in what I do
This righteous part of everything
I’m not doing this for you
In mesmerized thoughts sacred
You’ve been making this heart fonder
I don’t feel like world's ways crushed me
I might just never have belonged here
In every decay
There’s a testament of worth
Nothing will stay forever
We are learning this from birth
See I will try and give
As much as I can give
And if it is getting my best
I still might find some peace
In the end all I need to say
In all matters of respect
If it was I burnt all bridges
I never planned on going back
I’m never going back
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Cycles
02:27
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I see the ashes of who I used to be
And I don’t feel anywhere near
It’s like watching dead autumn leafs
Fall from the branch of a tree
To rot and start over again
To cycle their way up ahead
All loss will lead to inherent growth
New starts that cherish the old
I meditate about time
as a process towards decay
when I think about my past
I wish my memories away
But that’s the lesson I will learn
World’s ways don’t work in separate terms
Still when I think about it all
I’m overstrained just by its turn
Never satisfied
Always horrified
At one short glance
I saw death in his eyes
This circle is closed
Within the exchange of lives
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These words are taking a while
You let your breath sink in search of time
Short tales of wisdom that prove that this is you
You know it has got to be down there
I see the pain in your eyes
While you dig for your own life
This disconnection of body and mind
The fear of forgetting who you are.
I(hate to) see you question
the great man that you lost inside
To see you lose yourself
Back when you taught me
All the things you know of life
I’m so glad I could listen back then
For me you still are
Embodied wisdom eternally
I couldn’t care less you named „red“ „green“
still I hope
That you will not forget my face
That I’ll stay a part of your self
Please hear that you are loved
thank you for your guidance
Please know what you are worth
I hold your hand in silence
In the blankness of your search
You’ll find fragments of our way
The scattered bits of heritage
My highest goods today
And I know that it will hurt
The deafening sound of silence
Let me take your hand
Let me be your guidance
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